Online date?

i made so many blog entries this month. so much that i am proud of myself.

talking about that i am seeing somebody that i met online. not even met but i just messaged him a few timew. we'll call him K and its weird that i am doing that. gosh my life is practically turned upside down this months, i guess the last thing that i have not done is to out myself.

back to the subject, i am to meet him this sunday, place and time yet to be confirmed. i am a bit nervous. first of all i have never gone out to meet somebody like online dating. this is so weird. and i have no idea what i am looking forward from this meeting. whether i want a gay friend or actually. finally a Gay NZ boyfriend. but i hope for the best. maybe things can go further.

but the issue is ,sigh*, again, age. he is forty. yeah i know i am fulfilling the stereotype again but i dont want to miss the chance to meet guys just because they are old. and he is not sixty. he looks alright, not the type i like but he does not look too bad either. so i am keeping my fingers crossed. hope he is not the fem queen type, i am pretty much a queen myself (well i kinda internalized it, so i look pretty straight , except sudden burst of femme in me occasionally.) well i hope for the best. should learn not to expect things and most of all, be prepared to face rejections of any kind. its gay life, its hard