Gosh being a GAM in New Zealand is so miserable. i guess things were even worse for me being not in the scene. having more and more profiles set up in websites does not really help. Reason? keep seeing the same old faces again.
sometimes i wonder why these old ( mature man) in their 40s like Asian boys so much. i have a feeling that they were never Rice Queens when they are young ( KJ was, having known all his past BFs were all asian or PIers). when they hit forty suddenly they all convert to become Rice queens. searching for their perfect asian boy, one after another.
maybe it is true what i have read before in a blog ( bathhouse blues), that these over the prime GWM were looking for the next best thing after almost be dropped off the radar of young GWM, which of course is GAM. and those GAM who are potato queens will still go for them even when they are 15-30 years older than them ( sadly, i am in the categories too, but it wont be long). I sometimes wonder will things be different if i am in the scene, meeting more younger GWM i might get lucky with you of them. but then again, looking at my average look and also out of shape body, i better just forget about the idea altogether.
oh i was supposed to talk about the UniQ Auckland, the uni LBGT group that i joined in March but have not able to go for their meeting. could have gone to this week hadn;t i have to replace Jessica for the scripture study meeting cause she wants to meet her boyfriend who will stopped by en route to australia. always feel that it is between choosing God and being gay. cant i have both, promise to be a good boy (yeah right).
oh the FB thing well i decide to just lost contact with him and hopefully he will just stop calling me. i have not have a heart to tell him that he is a bit too feminine to me. and the teeth are like so big i thought i was french kissing a rabbit. Was a good fuck though. was a bit reluctant to let him fuck me but thank god he cant keep a hard on (pity for a 40 yrs old man ). so my cheerie is save again. wonder who will have it. KJ, if he decides to do me one day, or probably Greg, who will let me know when i can go over to his place for some fun. haha.
My honey KJ is fine. he quitted his job and started a new one, after much persuasion he decided to go back to college again to do his degree. as he now works part time, he can now meet me on friday, freeing up my sunday for tramp or an extra day of work. am happy with that.
and fingers-crossed i hope to meet interesting people next time around. Get lucky already!
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