My very own bear!

well i admit that i have always had a penchant for bears..... their hairiness, big size and the facial hairs are the epitome of manliness and i just go crazy if i ever meet one.... i even wish that i will eventually have a bear as my partner too...

well a gay we'll call him Nate he messaged me on PR.... i was quite excited when i saw his profile that he is of the bear type. we arranged to meet and true enough he is a bear... he seems to like me a lot and i think he likes me more than i like him.... well partly it was because of Adam.

i want to start a relationship with Nate... seeing that he is a nice guy and i am finally able to date someone who is bearish enough for me. but Adam will come in June and i believe i should wait for me to come to malaysia first before i assess my feelings towards both men. i have waited for more than a year for Adam and i don't want to give up now.

i told Adam and he actually asked me to give Nate a try.... he knows he is far away and can't really be with me when i need him and vice versa... so here i am having a relationship with two men at the same time.... which is a very funny thing cause i have always been a one man's man. but i will do this until Adam comes and i will decide whom i like or love more....

My pay will come in May... another month of waiting sigh....

i went to Qbar last night.... they had a very elaborate Drag show and i think they are even better than Family D.Queens. They performed songs that i knew and some of them really look like women. one of the girl performed Madonna's 'Miles Away' and it is now stuck in my head... good beats asides... it reminds me of someone far away whom i loved for so long....