Back in Malaysia

It has almost been a fortnight since i left Auckland for home. It was great seeing mum and dad and all my family members. The heat was not a shock for me, as it has been raining cats and dogs since the end of November in my home town. I was given a good chance to adjust to the heat again. But it was not such a difficult thing to do anyway, as i have lived in Malaysia for my whole life. Two years of New Zealand will not make me suffer through the heat back home. The adapting stage started and ended naturally and without me noticing it.

At the Auckland International Airport 12 days ago, the scene was just dramatic for some of us. Each of my hags bid farewell to a best friend in NZ and an ex boyfriend. The one who said goodbye to the boyfriend also cried before we boarded the plane back. It’s a wonder why they would react in such a way, while i know that of all of us, i will be the one who will miss this place the most. Well it was at New Zealand that i learn to embrace my sexuality and also the knowledge and skills to become one.

I came to the airport with the rest of us. Two of my church friend came to say bye to me and Rebecca. But no boyfriends for me sadly. KJ has left for Australia in Nov and i have not heard from him since. But i also don’t want to hear from him. It was a painful and shameful relationship to me that i just want to forget about it altogether. Of course after KJ i had mostly flings so am not attached after that. But i did send a message saying goodbye to all of them and i did get wishes and goodbyes from them as well.

The flight back was all right. As usual i enjoyed MAS’s inflight entertainment and also the food. I watched The Mummy 3 and also Mamma Mia, which were very good stories and comes with good songs for the latter. No hot flight attendant for me. The guy who sat beside me was fat and quiet. Food was tasty. I have always loved the plane food, the taste was pretty good and i love the packaging.

As i was on board i did get the chance to sit quietly in between shows, reminiscing my past life in New Zealand. My first sex, my first boyfriend, my first breakup, my flings and my gay friends whom i get to meet them but haven’t got a chance to know them better. It was a good two years despite the fact that two years are a short period of time and i am going back home broke . The life was good but it was funny that i am not missing any part of it except the cool weather i supposed. Well i am taking it as a good sign, as i believe that one day i will go back there again.
Heading back to Malaysia also excites me to an extent as well. As i switch the location of my personals to KL, i am looking forward of getting a few hits. I am also eager to check out gay scenes in KL, heard it was bigger than Auckland albeit less Whites and more discreet. Ivan will keep me in the loop if he is to head out sometimes, guess my gay life does not end in Auckland after all.

Will be going back to the Garden City of Lights in Jan 3rd. Will catch up with some friends and hopefully some fun in KL. I hope the movie ‘Australia’ will be screening in Jan so i can watch it at Midvalley. Am also looking forward to my last year of studying and my first year as a gay boy in KL.

Sun is shinning brightly ahead of me. Well at least i want it to be.