My first time

i came back from swimming pool today feeling a bit disoriented. i could not believe what had happened to me just now. the reality is trying to sink itself into my mind. i felt proud yet guilty at the same time. i had my first taste of having a jerk off session with a man.

i was at the swimming pool ,putting on my clothes after a hot bath. as usual i was feasting on the naked guys that are all around me. then there was this guy who looks kinda cute, chubby and tall caucasian. he gave me a smile and i smile back. he looks a bit restless and keep looking at me. i wa thinking either he was doing the same thing i have been doing, or he is condemning me inside for my pervertness. then he took off his pants and was walking around naked. when i was washing my swimming trunks he went to the basin, when i went to the urinal he went there as well. As i had experience of being followed by a gay guy before in KL (of which i gracefully rejected), i knew that this guys was hitting on me and he is, obviously, gay. i turned to him and smile, i guess i just confirmed that i am gay and am interested for a bathroom visit. he whispered, 'shall we go to the toilet outside? i am a bottom' i nodded and went along. as we walk there i was thinking, of my goodness what have i got myself into, i am going to have sex, for the first time, with a caucasian guy.

it all started the moment he closed the bathroom door, it was a disabled toilet which is quite spacious. i told him it's my first time and i was a bit nervous. He gave a smile and said no worry, that s when it all began. he took off his pants and helped me with my pants and shirt, he went straight to my dick and suck it. it was first time i was sucked, felt a bit funny . he was hard. then we kiss. that's the funny part, because i have never kissed before i felt a bit weird kissing a guy, with the tongue and teeth and all. his dick was a bit bigger than mine. i think it felt magical the moment i held his dick. it was like dream come true after watching porn for so long, because i always wondered how it feels like to have sex with a a guy. well i almost had it all. we kissed, jerked, sucked each other until he came. i, meantime, because of too nervous and also have been jacking off for too many times this week, failed to come. however, knowing that he came gave me a relief, if i did not enjoyed it, at least he did.

he told me his name is Quake, or Quaid, i did not really get that. The whole thing was a relief for me. obviously i am gay now. it felt quite good when he fingered my ass, and i fingered his too. and to kiss and hug a guy was a great feeling, it feels nice to hold a strong man. gosh i could be into bears. and i also sucked his cock too. It felt weird too but it was nice, now i know what deep throating is. he asked me after whether i have a partner, i told him that i am still in closet, he said 'one day you will find one'. How i hope he was right. i will love to have a caucasian boyfriend, if only that is possible.

i walked back a changed person, now i hope i get to do a real sex,with anal penetration and all that. but now, i guess i have to admit that i am gay.

now how about swimming next saturday?