today Nate said that we should remain friends. my feelings for me is not reciprocated. he was very different from how hw was when he first met me. he was very affectionate and lovey-dovey. i think somethng may be wrong with me. he gave a myriad of excuses... unresolved emotional baggage, fear of committing into relationship for the 20th time... but i took it all in stride.... though when i was having lunch with him i was trying so hard not to cry... gosh it sucks being disappointed like that. now i know what KJ must have felt when i decided to break up with him.
i knew very well that i will survive this. he was my bear for many days before this happen. my heart long for him when i go to bed... when i left i said a little prayer that God will find someone for me eventually, even when he is not Nate.. Nate and I will remain friends. so will it be.
work wise it was quite hectic... was quite happy to be given world studies. loved the subject and i enjoy my students too. very cute and very young haha. hope i will make a good teacher. and my love life? God will provide, He gaveth and taketh away... i believe that.
